I wear these beads. for you. for them.

Like I said, " Anna I wear these beads for you, for Lucas, Mark, Fiona, Claire, Liam, Obama, David M., David O., Grace, David Daniel, Alvin, Bella, Moses, Precious, Esther, Junior, Maddox, Abdul, Maliko, Scarlett, Ocitti, Patience and the other 147 million just waiting.... patiently.innocently.waiting...waiting to be l.o.v.e.d.

his air...

no air and MYC huh that is where I left you...
well let's say I am slowly regaining air, continuing on

Minnesota Youth Convention is amazing
last year, I was called to become a Youth Pastor and go to North Central Bible College in Minneapolis
well let me say this, any day before that weekend you could have said, "Maria
are you going to NCU like Anna and Katie did?"
you would have got a pretty firm nope.
God has my life though
he can lead me
and he did that night I fell to my knees and knew the Lord's way
I am still planning on fulfilling all of that.
This year I didn't know what to expect
what I was going to walk away with
well afterwards (now)
I can say I don't know what I did
I was left so speechless with an unknown feeling
I know God spoke to me
not in my language though
ha.
I think it was my weekend to go and just be myself even though my world outside
was kind of crumbling
God was saying just dwell in peace
and rest in my love.
I did, I was renewed
did you know:
only 3600 teen students can give 19,200 dollars for Project Rescue
(Project Rescue brings hope to the girls and boys in the sex trade)
yep that's right the sex trade.
here is what I have to say that I know I walked away with this year
I asked God to literally break my heart for what breaks his.
have you ever felt your heart break. physically.
both those days.
I. d.i.d.
first: when students ran to the alters Thursday night to be rid of there past
worthlessness, loneliness, rape, anger, fear
second: when Pastor Eric Timm spoke on how only 20 dollars can rescue a girl being abused in India.
19200/20
that is 960 girls and boys we gave hope to
such a simple gift.
I don't want you to think only these amazing weekends my heart breaks.
nope.
I felt that horrible wrenching pain in my chest on the way to school the other morning
when I saw three people in their cars at just one stop light smoking their lives away.
so that is that.
please check out www.projectrescue.com
maybe find a way to give the gift of hope instead of by your new 360 turn dust mop.
or your cardigan,
cup of coffee,
must I keep going.
Anyways I hope God is working in your life like he is working in mine.
I hope you are breathing in his air...
I know I am.