my eyes want...

this week was amazing ... the things i saw imprinted forever
let me share ...

Monday

I left for Lake Geneva Bible Camp

(the best week of my life)

with in hours i was praying on a packed gym floor with kids who cared

cared who God really is

cared that there is a need

then to a chapel filled with praises

and a black speaker Mr. Dabbs

after that

i rededicated my life to Jesus Christ

and listened to heaven rejoice

PRAISE THE LORD

Tuesday

The full day

nothing is better then waking up in the morning with nothing finished

everything to come

that night my life was changed my pain dissolved

i went up for an alter call that was focused on if you had pain in your life

to be honest i do

pain for the orphans, the sick, the lonely, the starved

and my little church

my friend stood next to me that night

hurting for her cousin

we hugged and cried neither wanting to let go of love

the next thing i knew their weren't many left up at the alter

my eyes puffy and tears flowing

my dam had broke... every tear for a new picture in my head

i got hugged that night by a man i didn't know, a friend who i will always love,

my youth pastor the man the Lord has brought to speak and care for me and my friends and my counselor a lady who brings the sun into sunshine

yes...

it was an unstoppable night

thank you Jesus for those hugs everyone meant more then ever imagined

Wednesday

known as Holy Spirit night

this night i found my self on the ground for my Lord

screaming praises for my God

jumping for the joy of my Jesus

yes he is MY Lord

MY God

MY Jesus

i am his and he is mine

Thursday

the night no one wants

but god still did wonder filling the chapel with people speaking tongues

and the love of everyone together...

my eyes saw pain this week

my own and others pain around me

and ... well...

i want them to see more

for my eyes saw those same pains be washed away

and nothing besides my God can do that

so ...

i wanna see more of my God

i want to see more

my eyes want to see more

see more pain

the more pain the more healing

the more healing

the more faith

the more faith

the more God

and after this week all i want is more God

i am now more positive then ever some how

some way in the next year i will be packing my bags

and boarding a plane to Africa for one month to visit Anna

and give my eyes what they want ...

Merry Christmas Anna

that's when i am hoping to be seeing you :)

A Small Piece of my World ...

I love Old White Face ...

Moosie

Cola and I ...

Just a small piece today

maybe someday though

my world

my work

my way...

to give back

they deserve more (love)

God made them too.

found a few of these wonderful candid photos

riding imaginary horses

i want this hair back

fish face

some days life's a butt

Preview

diary post from July 4th

Last night was unstoppable...
nothing in the city could compare to yesterday's country night,
first was the boat ride
all i can say is it was amazing
amazing smells (smells of bbq food on the grill, wood burning, cut grass, and the lake)
amazing sights ( i have never seen so many shades of green speckled with beautiful lake homes)
amazing skiing (it was on of those nights where their elbows almost hit the water with every single cut )
then a power walk/run with anna and katie (not to mention i finished first) :)
we three decided to swim... at 9:50 the air was hot and the water was warm what else could you ask for ...
and then there was the deck, a night where the mosquito candles are burning and the oldies are playing which always calls for a little dancin' (including the all famous loco motion and walking like an egyptian dances)
and the drive to grams and gramps house where you can just snuggle up under the covers and sleep until the sun starts shining the next day... all i can say is it's summer time (love)